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not sure I have anything witty to add here… in fact, I've found the pressure to produce something on a daily basis has definitely affected my normal writing style – although perhaps the subject matter also had something to do with it.
but returning to the original premise of simply expressing my own experiences "living with prostate cancer" – I think I've accomplished that to some degree.  I've obviously glossed over a lot of the more mundane and minute bits, and so there may be room for a sequel some day (I hear the groans…!). But, it has forced me to do a lot of digging into my own recollections and sources of accounts in order to compose it and so the end result is definitely a better understanding and much clearer documentation of my experience than I've ever had before.
and I'll reiterate that "for me" and I believe for most folk with various cancers or any chronic disease – that it is indeed just something we "live with".  We're not survivors – surviving tends to denote the sense of having passed through something and come out the other side victorious (maybe damaged, but still victorious).  I don't see that as applicable to any cancer… regardless of how long one may supposedly be "cancer free" according to some test or set of criteria – there's absolutely NO guarantee that not a single mutated cell with malicious intent still remains in your body – even if dormant for a time – even a long time!  So, you don't ever get to a place where you can say "I've beaten cancer".
you live with it
How you live with it, is another story.  You can believe you've beaten it and live in that dream world until it rears its ugly head once again, to destroy your self-satisfied head-space, but I don't think the trade-off is worth it – that "coming down to earth" again can be an extremely unpleasant experience that can completely overshadow the months or years spent in never-never land.
I think it's far better to come to terms with the fact that you "have cancer" and despite the state of the disease – active, under control, in remission, or whatever… you still strive to live as fully and as normally as you are able, given the circumstances.
How you do that… well… I can only share how I have been able to deal with things.  I have found that despite any set-backs, any nasty treatment side-effects, I can always know with absolute assurance, that the Lord has a plan for me.  I may not have chosen this path, and I certainly wouldn't wish it on anyone else – but, through it all – as I live with cancer, I can know that HE is walking with me, and as long as I continue to trust him completely for all that lies ahead, there's nothing to fear!
truths I can lean on:
Psalms     23:4   Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me;
Hebrews  13:5  …be content with such things as ye have: for He hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
and so many, many more…  and although it certainly wasn't my "raison d'être" for writing this account, if you want to have the same peace, you can…  start by reading the Gospel of John in the KJV or NASB translations (readily available online) and you can find the answer in the person of Jesus Christ and his love for you.  You can always reach out to me at the email address in the header, if you have any questions.
I may write some follow-up posts from time to time… but until then – if walking a similar path, remember to do your research, find a well-respected clinic, demand 2nd or even 3rd opinions, never be pressured into anything, and accept that your choices may be different than mine or those of everyone else you know – but they are your choices to make!
finally – and this one is critical – marry an oncology nurse smiley


    • Glenn Darrel Davidson
    • Posted 2014-11-30 at 15:05
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    I grew a moustache for Movember, and I have had three donations to the cause. How and where do I send the money ?

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